My dream boy

Bachpan se hi ek banda dil mein tha jiska khayl toh tha bt pehchan nahi mein uske bare mein sabkuch janti thi wo mujhe apne aap se bhi jyaada janta tha bt uska chehra dhundla sat ha jiske ek khayal se sayaad 5 saal mein bhi mere chehre pe muskaan aajati thi meine use saayd apne zehen mein sma diya tha bus uski dhundlahat ko mitana tha..

Bachpan se pyaar ko mehsoos kiya tha sapno mein apne imagnatin mein ..sirf usiko humesha jub bhi dukhi hoti thi sab kuch uss ke saamne bol deti thi apne har dil ki baat use bayan kardeti thi tab mujhe I love u ka matlab pata nahi tha naki kiss ka matlaab aur na hi wo mere paas tha bt phir bhi sayaad usko mene shuru se hi pyaar kiya uske ehsaas ko uske care ko uske dosti ko humsha apne karib paya ..jub bhi akle thi bus usiko apne paas pati …kitna aajeeb than a wo pass na hoke bhi uska ehsaas wo dhundli aahat hi sabse karib tha mere ...ek masumiyat thi mere pyaar mein..

Ma ki kami humesha khalti thi bt ye sab bhi uske ehsaas se puri hojati .. anjan thi mein inn baton se ki pyaar ka asli mayna kya hota ahi par sirf uski dosti aur uska saath mere liye pyaar tha mere liye sabkuch tha ..dhire dhire badi toh hogai bahut bando se dosti hui par koi uss jaisa nahi tha asliyat ye thi ki saayd meine aapne bachpan ke uss ehsas ko kuch jyada hi perfect bana liya tha wo kuch alag hi tha sab bando se alag use sirf mein thi uska har ek lamha mera tha uski liye pyaar bhi mein thi aur jindagi v jaise ki use meine socha tha paar sayaad hakikat nahi mila bahut saal bit te gaye dhire dhire baki bando se jaan pehcan badhti gayi aur uska ehsaas kaamte gaya aur wo dhundli yaar tot gayi mujhe wo nahi mila aur saydd aab puri jaan chuki thi ki wo mujhe pura kabhi nahi milega

Bt kehte hai na jub kisi ki as khatm hojati hai tub wo achanak samne aajata hai ek din kismet ne milwa hi diya par na bhagvan humesha ankh micholi karta ahi mili toh pr wo pass nahi tha na hi samne tha

Sayad usse jab meine pehli baar baat ki tub mujhe pata nahi tha ki wo wahi hai usme duniya aajaeygi meri

Issilye bus aise hi baat karliya tha jaise ki wo bhi baki ke tarah ahi par dhire d

hire humari baat badhi bich mein akdu bhi laga aare lagega kyun nahi jub tariff kiya toh akad gaya huh bt fir bhi bahut masum tha haan dikhane ko toh use kuch fark nahi padta tha kisi baat se par bt emotional tha bahut jyada acha thaw o banda bahut alag tha wahi tha jisko mene 15 sal dhunda tha

meine usse baat kya ph pe sayaad tab bhi ehsaas nahi hua pr baat toh thi kuch usme uske ph ka intjaar mein ph rakhne ke baad se karma chalu karti thi bahut besabri se uske ph ka intajar karti use baat karne ke baad adhi raat tak bus usi ke bare mein sochti ye bhi socha tha kabhi ki kaas uske jaisa koi mil jae par ye nahi socha tha ki wo hi miljaega fir dhire dhire hum ache dost bante gae aur ek din aisa aaya ki wo mujhse kaafi dur chala gaya mein baht tadpi thi roya bhi tha dil se royi thi uss din usse naa bat karne ka wo ehsas mere liye bahut dardnaak tha bt aapne un asuon ko bahut chupaya tha meine .. tab ehsaas hogaya tha ki mein usse bahut pyaar karti hun pur aab kya aab sb jaa chukka tha sab mein tot gayi thi par himmat juta ke saocha ki wo meiri kismt mein nahi that oh milta kaise usse bhulne ki puri koshis ki

fir aaya feb 14 usne ph kiya uski awaj sunte hi meri jan mein jaan aagai thi paar jaldi tha uss din paar pata nahi uss din bahut shaanti mili thi mujhe usse baat karke par ph nahi rakhna chahti thi mein par

majburan rakhne ke baad 10 min sake mein khadi thi usi ke bare mein soch rahi thi phir meire exams chalu hogaye mein kafi busy hogayi thi par uski yaad abhi bhi thi zehan mein bus chem. Ka paper deke aayi thi aau raat ki 8.46 ko usska ph aaaya socha nahi uthaoungi par phir maan nahi mana aur utha liya adhaghanta idhar udhar baat kiya uske baad majak majak mein usne pucha tha us samay bola toh ye tha ki tum serious hote toh sochti bt icha ye ho rahi thi bol dun ki mein tumse bahut pyaar karti hun plz mere saath raho bachpn se tumhe dhunda hai

aab thak chki hun bahut akeli hun plz aajao I want to hug u shonu bt bol na

hi payi uss samay wo ehsaas fir se aagaya tha fir dhiire dhire baat aage badhne lagi aaur janab ne mujhe sochne ko kaha & mujhe yaad hai meine ek baar mein haan boldi usne bola ek baar socho bt meine bola sochliya uss din ye toh nahi bola ki I love u bt mein bahut khush thi mujhe lag raha tha mujhe sab milgaya pure jahan ki khushi me uska andaj puchne ka kabhi nahi bhul sakti pat rahi hai? Pat ti hai toh bol warna jan de “

Mujhe pata nahi ph rakhne ke baad usne kya socha bt meine padhai hi band kardiya jo padha tha sab bhul chuki thi bus uski awaj yaad thi uske shaabd yaad the puri raat khuli ankhon mein hi mein bahut se sapne bun liye the use pakar mein khus thi mein bahut khus thi jindagi ki sabse badi khusi mil gayi thi uss din

Uski baat hi kuch aaur hai wo mere sapno mein tha mere ehsas mein tha aur ab mere jindagi mein mere samne hai uski dhundlahat mit gai use paakar mein alag hi duniya me hun wo mujhe sabse jy

ada samjhta ahi I love him I love d way he care I love d way he says I l

ove u I love d way he kis me in d ph I love d way he says his imagntin I love d way he cal me nautanki I love d way he becom possessive to me I love him all over I live fr u jaan I wan meet u I wan hug u tight & us ek hug se sab batana chahti hun …..i cant live widot u a sec